i just don't understand you.
i know i said i would try not to feel like that,
but the more i try to talk to you, the more i feel like i'm not even worth your time anymore.
i guess it was gonna happen eventually.
i never expected it to be this soon.
in my point of view, its like you know how i feel.
so i'll leave that with you.
i don't even want to handle that part of my life right now.
maybe i'm just being overly sensitive, but i can't help the way i feel.
i think you know how you're acting towards me. maybe i'm wrong,
but i feel like you do.
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so now, to the general peoples, i miss you guys<3
my heart just really hurts and i need comfort and i can't even see you guys.
so like everyday i try my best not to cry when i'm at school and stuff.
i'm even crying right now =/
i just really need to see you guys and just talk with you guys in person.
texting is so impersonal.
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about my thoughts:
1) i miss you guys
2) my heart hurts
3) i need a catchup session with a LOT of people<3
4) i might take a break from going to church soon.
i'm so sick of just... the feeling that i get from being at church.
i need to just step out of there and have time to settle my heart.
i'm just so sick of church and the people there.
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i'm really trying not to get corrupted, but with all the situations life is throwing at me right now,
damn i really want to go drinking again...
im currently just in a fuck life stage.
i hate it.
i need time to heal.
